Slow day

I wasn't expecting work to be so hectic today, or to come in such dribs and drabs. It's nice to sit though, and J is actually napping today.

Originally I thought she'd be peppy, since she had a big nap yesterday (sleeping off the aftereffects of the Ravens party on Saturday night, no doubt). But she woke up pale, and came home pale from school. Usually lunch perks her up, but then afterward, as we worked on a sticker mosaic together, she complained of feeling shaky.

This is not a common complaint, and I felt a tinge of alarm. I know it's ridiculous, considering how seldom she has been sick over her life, and considering how sick one of my neighbor's kids is right now. But the way she put it made me nervous.

"You know how G is shaky?"

G is my littlest niece, and she has epilepsy. Her first seizures became evident at four. I suppose I have always been watching for symptoms in J - it was a disease my mother had, so it is certainly a possibility. Rationally, I know J was referring to normal shaky-hands shaky, but I paused and looked deeply into her eyes.

No, I thought, she's just tired. Maybe a cold. Maybe a growth spurt. But I will keep an eye on her nonetheless.

I'm watching her sleep over the monitor. May she always be so peaceful...