Things that are true (today)

1. Last summer I did a project in MS Access and I hated it. Even after reading 'Access for Dummies' I still couldn't figure out problems I encountered, and finally had to BEG my husband to help. It made me cry. And now the client has come back and asked for enhancements to the database and reports. I want to say, 'No,' but I can't. And it makes me want to cry again.

2. J has something she calls The Process Dance. It's more like a cheer, really, but she does it with panache. She hops, feet apart, arms pointing in opposite directions, and chants, 'Process! Process! Proooocessss!!' And I love her for it. If you knew me, you'd understand.

3. We are preparing to put our house on the market, and I am all conflicted about it. We want to live closer to a town where many of our friends and some of our family live. We want the girls to have a shorter bus ride to school. We want things in our house that would be ridiculous to change here (like have a different kind of hardwood throughout the main floor, or have a different structural configuration for our master bathroom). We can afford a little more now, and the change in lifestyle without so many hours on the road would be huge.... But (and there's always a but), I am feeling pangs of love for my current house lately, and it gives me pause. I can remind myself that we are happy wherever we are because we're all together. I can remind myself that I can plant new roses and new peonies and a new pink dogwood. I can assure myself that we can drive back out here to play with our favorite neighbors any time. That doesn't make it easy though. I really wish I could fast-forward time, and that's not a good thing.

All in all, life is good right now, so I should just shut the frack up.